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Friday, November 19, 2010

What about love?

I love you again... I love you more!

Hurm, what is it really about love? I can't stand to be alone again. Now I'm not sure was there is any left for me to love anymore.

What about love? What about feeling? Tell me baby what about us? How do I can stand when outside is raining slowly, feels like its run through my wounded heart and its really hurt! Pedih...

We should just keep holding hands and shows them we are happy together. I really missed the moment we had to the pair of us. Even its not so sweet and shortwhile, it is worth remembering for a lifetime. I just cant take my eyes on you the first time we met. Maybe you didnt realize it.

Huh, maybe I need Harry Potter to cast me the "Expecto Patronum" charm. So I wont be sad again or feel despair and its protecs me from get hurt. That seems to be ridiculous, yeah I know. But I wish you'll think of me too right now. I dont wanna just watch this moment go by.

So listen.... "I just wanna be happy"

(Lets me finish just a few paragraphs then I'll have my 'Sweet Dream')

You dont know what I'm feeling.. I dont know where I belong, but I'll be moving on. If you dont! If you wont love me as I am. The charm has come, I will find my own life. But I have to admit that you did inspire me, you gave me the strength to believe in myself. And for that, I thank you.

Is there any doctor here? I wish that you could look into my 'amygdalae'。。 I think I might need a neurological surgery to wash away my emotional feeling. Or I just need Hermoine Jean Granger to cast me 'Obliviate' charm to wept away my memory.

But baby, I still here as I were before.

I am sorry I wrote this, its mean nothing just another drama that plays in my head. But I hope you guys will find it entertaining and instructive.

"If you live to be a hundred, I want to live a hundred minus one day... So I never have to live without you"

(c) Alexisqandar

Friday, October 8, 2010

Aku masih single..

Cliche kan?? Hehe..

Aku masih single bukan tak mahu mencinta atau dicintai, aku cuma tak mahu menjanjikan apa-apa untuk diriku sendiri. I do have crushes on some of them but still, aku merasakan tiada apa-apa disana and I feel stupido.

So, I just teruskan hidup seperti biasa. Memanjakan diriku dengan apa yang ku mau. Ohh ya, aku juga baru pulang dari short vacation di Sibu Island. It was fun and enjoying and cheap. Haha, biasalah bisness minded memang seperti itu. Selagi boleh jimat kan.

What's great about being single is, kita boleh jalan kemana-mana ikut suka ati, boleh beli apa-apa yang kita mahukan and do the decision yourself. Tak payah nak gaduh-gaduh argue pasal benda-benda kecik macam nih. Unless you guys sangat memahami antara satu sama lain and tolerance.

Ermm, for the time being aku tengah syiok melayan tv series dari German. "Christian & Oliver: Verboten Liebe". Series yang sangat sweet dan menggugat jiwa untuk mencari couple seperti mereka. Tersangat jealous okay...hahaha~! Tapi adakah orang yang seperti mereka? Cute, sweet, romantis (chewahhh), understanding, loving, caring and not so perfect but great enough as a lover. Verangannn...

Some says, "You still young and can do anything to enjoy your life. Insyallah you'll find your way" Well I hope so too. But for now there so many beban aku kena tanggung. Tak adalah aku enjoy sangat pun. Its family and self needs. Ermm.. scratch that. Malas nak fikir.

This week I will do some change to my life. Harap-harap apa yang aku plan nih berjalan seperti direncanakan.

I just need one... where life doesn't revolve around a clock~!


Wednesday, July 14, 2010

P.S… I Love You

I really want to send a letter, like the classic love letter. Put it in the envelope and punch heart red stamp on it. Mail it miles and miles away. It seems the real me. Yes, I am a romantic guy. You can laugh about it, like I care! Waka~waka. My friend was choked on his smoke when he heard me said it.

I love you

Well, it’s not like I want my lover to send me a White Lily everyday. Saying “I love you” hundreds times a day. With just one sincere touch, will boost my heart and lighten up my day. Thank you.

Apparently, I love to write. I think you read enough at it. Lets call it love congeniality.

There is century white villa. Green carpet of grass on the yard with a beautifully crafted swinger midst of it. Flowery motive surface of crystal blue cold swimming pool. Light and fresh ambience. Soft sound of love music orchestrate indistinctively.

Flocks of birds flying low as they chattered vociferously. The white sweet mist blanket the morning sky. With shyness shine of sun waken up the vigorously calyx in the ornamental garden enclosed to the villa. Emitting its pervasive smell.

Homemade bolognaise, roasted fish, udang masak merah, Cheese Swiss Grilled Sandwich with Potato Roesti, freshly blend green apple juice plus sweet and colorful dessert concoctions. While having lunch we share funny stories.

Then, as far as eye can see, there is brown sunsets. Golden warm light illumination embrace our skin. Beautiful sounds of waves sing the song of nature. So intriguing. The love intifada.

Later in the night so blue, candle is all set. Two Lalonde Louis XVI design sofa bed opposite each other, smoothly crafted Flemish Renaissance sleeping bed covered with plethora of Bunga Harum Sundal Malam petals on it. Plus Lavender. We chat all night long. About life. About our world.

la~~la~~lala~.... la~lala~la (love song hums)

"Dear Love,

It is made me a man by you loving me. But even then, I’m not just a chapter in your life. There is more! And it is love who choose you sometimes. If love is a sin, then just let it be"

P.S... I Love You~!!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


I never had real birthday celebration before. All that I could remember, my sister waken me up in the middle of the night. Asking me to wash my face and wait in the room. Suddenly she came up with a bottle of Coca Cola and a RM3 cupcake. Just me and her. She sang me birthday song silently. Its so wonderful. I’m crying to remember that. It was my 5th grade. She said that the reason why she did it just because I got 100% on my English paper.

I’m not asking for big ceremony or a party for my birthday. But if its happen. I’m complacent. Thankful enough with a wish from the real friends and the love ones.

Now I am 25. Open close the eye, it is a long time. And its time for me to think and move forward to be an adult. There are plenty of plan I wanna do in my life. So much more to achieve.

(where gone all idea that I had in mind just now…BLANK!!)

Ok, now. Coming to think about that, I’m extraordinaire honour my Mom for everything what she did to me since I were just a cell. She is spectacular! I never wanted this. I never wanted that. But she gave me everything. In the ways that she may could. You are wonderful Mom. I miss you so much and much more.

Memories. Those memories taught me a lot about life. Believe me if I write my real life condition since I born to know about the world, you’ll cry over it. Enough with if I just telling you, you don’t wanna be me. And you’ll be thankful enough to be yourself.

I do want to share this story with you guys. I doesn’t mean nothing but just a story…

I cant remember how old am I that day… Its 13th July early in the morning. My dad shouted asking for his mobile phone. Calling my name. Out of twelve siblings he just remember my name. I just awoken ‘unloadingly’ blur. I searched for his phone all over the house. Yes, no miscall can be done because it is only him has phone in the house. Found it dad! Then I gave it to him by hand… I’m rubbing my sleepy eyes. ‘Prangggg…!!’ There it goes on the floor…the phone.

Splattt…!!’ One soft touch on my cheek… Happy birthday my son~ thank you daddy.

Its doesn’t mean that I hate him now. But that memories I’ll remember on every birthday that I have.

There it comes the tears session, I don’t know how do I feel right now. One of my chatting friend asking me how do I feel? The best word to describe it that through my mind is… I feel NUMB~ The feeling that you know its your birthday but you don’t have anybody to celebrate with. Somebody that really know you. Sad and lonely. Vulnerable plus the feeling that like you think nobody cares or concern about you. Like the scrambled egg.

But I still thinking about someone, I don’t wanna blame him because he’s not feeling well. I still pray for him…on my birthday. I don’t want anything else from him other than to recover soon and be strong to fight it. I really wanna go there…but, could I?

Tik tok… 2400

Its my birthday…13 July 2010. Happy birthday Alexisqandar…!

Special thanks to Joehardy (the first to wish me on the phone), Araf, and Koci Berhad (facebook) and all. Love you guys…


I wish for a happy life…

Monday, July 5, 2010

I Remain...

There is a time, when you heard you heart call for love. You struggled to ignore the ignited flame in you. And then you vow to your soul. You thrilled to know who is that person? The only advicement remain in my head just say “I do”.

We have to realize, how far we run, how deep we dive we cant runaway from such called LOVE. I’m saying this because I also been single for about 6 month already and I have to admit that now I longing for somebody to love. Yes I’m in love… my heart is under attack, but I still couldn’t find who is to love?

Lately, I’ve been busy with my new job. It’s kind off challenging when have you to manage a branch with many type of customers and most of all controlling your youthful staff. I’m still trying to adapt to this life but I’m thankful for I’ve been given the opportunity to prove myself to the world. I can do it.

Nocturnal life? Equally to my insomnia habits. The job I have here require me to be flexible a.k.a chameleonaire. Sometimes I’m on day shift then night shift (work until 2am or 3am) and usually no off day for weekends.

But, I’m happy now! Gaining new friends like resurrection to a new life. Accommodate myself with anything that according to my personal needs to replenish my lifestyle. Even that, lets get back to the main focus I wrote this article… I just need somebody to love.

Its not that I already forgotten the person that I used to love before which is the love I never knew that mine or not. My love still there, but I don’t want to put all my hopes on it. Life is unpredictable. Not all that you want is what you get and not all what you got is what you want. Isn’t?

“Separuh Jiwaku Pergi” song is humming through my head. Yes I do love you, but not like this.

I just need somebody to love, somebody to share my funny and sad stories. Somebody beside me. I need someone to hug and kiss me tender to minimize my stress. Yes! That’s science; kiss and hugs can make us calm and complacent.

I never needed someone to taking care of myself on every datum. Don’t need to endure to my frivolity. Intertwined is great.

Off course I have my own specification. Write down this one: you never happy with someone who you didn’t like even you are in love with that person. Very much like an experienced to me. Believe me.
Love is like having beautiful wound. Even I see your sweet smile, I still can’t laugh with you. Sometimes we miss someone but we dont know his real name.. like ..we knw the song title but we dont knw how to sing it~!

This silent loneliness is brilliant. This type of feeling makes me write emotionally. Alone once again crying for you… Alone once again missing for you… Baby I love you I still waiting for you.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Singgah sebentar ~

Salam sayang buat semua...

Maaflah jika sudah terlalu lama tidak ada menulis artikel baru. I terlalu sibuk dengan kerja baru ini. Balik kerja jer letih.. Tambahan pula I punyer P1 dah POTONG!! cuma dapat meluangkan sedikit masa kat CC di pagi buta ini.

Insyallah jika ada masa lebih yang terluang, I akan cuba menulis sesuatu lagi. Cuma buat masa ini I kena lebih fokus pada kerjaya. Terlalu banyak tanggung jawab dan banyak juga yang perlu I pelajari.

Semoga teman-teman bahagia dan gembira selalu ya!


"Cinta dan kebersamaan... perlukan pengorbanan"

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Kasta Cintaku...

Tirai langit makin kelam, hati aku pula sudah sepi. Mahu tidur tapi ada saja yang berlegar di ruang benak aku. Hairan sungguh, kenapa aku ada perasaan seperti ini? Lelapkan mata sahaja mesti terpampang bayangnya yang tak pernah lagi aku temui. Aduh...pilunya suasana ini!

Makin aku coba untuk menghindari perasaan ini, makin aku rasa tak mampu menjauh. Seperti suatu aliran magnet yang menetapkan setiap kutub-kutub pemikiran aku kepadanya. Tapi apakah ini yang sebenarnya? Adakah dia merasakan apa yang aku rasa kini? Atau cuma aku saja yang berpanggung di layar lebar tanpa arah dan diiringi sorotan bunyi yang syahdu.

Air mata!! Mengapa kau mengalir lagi? Sudahilah air mata itu dan jangan pernah sesali apa yang berlaku. Aku juga bukan menyesali, cuma sedikit terhambat oleh perasaan yang semakin mendalam dan menyiat-nyiat setiap inci hati aku. Kenapa dia terlalu mudah termakan oleh kata-kata orang? Apakah luahan hatiku sudah tidak perlu untuk didengari lagi atau itu alasan cuma.

Ya tuhan! Berikanlah aku tanda untuk memahami apa yang sedang berlaku. Aku terlalu takut untuk menerima kenyataan ini. Maka Engkau kuatkanlah hatiku, agar aku bisa menjalani hariku dengan penuh kebahagiaan.

Aku coba untuk menekup akal aku dengan selendang putih suci. Agar aku tidak memikirkan perkara yang setidaknya. Agar aku berfikiran positif. Aku coba untuk membuat sesuatu untuk mengaburi perasaan hatiku tatkala cinta sudah tiada lagi buat aku. Tapi ternyata radiasi kasihnya terlalu kuat untuk aku menahan. Sehingga aku terpempan di kamar berduri. Hiris-hiris hatiku sangat memeritkan. Dingin.

Mengapakah ada saja yang tidak suka melihat kebahagiaan insan lain sehingga aku yang terheret merah di gurun asmaradana. Apakah lagi yang perlu aku lakukan untuk membuktikan segalanya?

Berilah aku peluang untuk merasai nikmat madu kasihnya. Walau sesaat jua aku terima. Janganlah halangi aku. Walau pedang setajam tujuh belah rambut. Akan aku terjangi. Tapi apakan daya jika syurga idaman yang dituju telah terhasut oleh bias-bias neraka laknat itu.

Kasih, dengarilah aku. Tidakkah terdetik dihatimu ingin merasakan kasih aku ini. Atau sememangnya kau tidak sudi dengan cinta aku yang polos ini. Dan mengapa dulu kau anggap semuanya indah dan mahu aku menjadi raja dipangkal hatimu. Sehingga aku terbuai dan jinak seperti kucing Parsi dahagakan susu cintanya. Dan kini kau mahu aku menawan puncak gunung Tivana sendirian. Kau mahu melihat aku dipuncak dan akulah kekasihmu.

Oh belitnya hidup ini. Aku coba untuk merungkai agar aku bisa menapak sekilas kancil di dalam hutan dara. Mungkin aku sudah terbiasa mendambakan cinta. Akan aku coba bangkit melihat sebalik awan. Memahami setiap puing-puing kehidupan. Dan pastinya berharap, agar semuanya akan kembali reda. Seperti apa yang aku inginkan. Guntur fitnah itu tidak sama sekali menggerunkan aku.

Cintaku adalah pedangku, kasih aku adalah perisai aku, sayang aku adalah bahtera aku, rindu aku adalah kompas aku, kesetiaanku adalah semangat aku....

Kasta Cintaku..

(c) Copyright:  Alexisqandar 7

Comfort Tears..

This sunlight,

Will remember the journey i took long ago,
To come to you,
My beautiful love,
The faraway sea and the sky will cherish,
The precious memories that you and I share,
You an your radiant blue are my sea,
Your dreams crumbled to the touch like white sand,
I'm going on a journey,
Into the depth of the sea,
I'll ride these gentle currents,
To hold you..
I'm sure you know how much I love you..
So would you please embrace me with your warmth..

I looked at the forest in the night sky..
The dims lights of the path I cannot reach..
Comfort me in my tears..
To live is to dream an endless dream from which you cannot awake..

Everything is gonna be alright!
Wherever you go I'll be with you..
We will be together forever..
Today I'm smiling looking at the sky...

You know..
There are people - Beautiful people..
You just wish they could see you in a different side, different place..
Instead of what you are, what you've become..
But most of all,
You wish you weren't such a pussy for wishing for things that'll never change.

(c) copyright:  Alexisqandar 7

Saturday, April 3, 2010

In This Pearl of Love...

Dear Love..
You're my piece of my mind,
Your love is a pearl,
You're my Monalisa,
Do you realise? My Beautiful...
I don't have millions reasons,
I'm just in love with you,
I can't help it,
Even though..
I don't want to love you,
Thats why I keep loving you,
Thinking everything will turn out..
All right in the end!
I will rejoice and be glad in your steadfast love,
Because u have seen my affliction,
You have known the distress of my soul..
(c) copyright: Alexisqandar 7

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Apakah Ertinya Bila Kau Bukan Kekasih...

Entah apa yang aku rasakan kini? Aku sendiri tidak mengerti siapa sebenarnya diri aku lagi. Fikiran aku masih lagi ligat mencari pengertian yang seutuhnya. Kadang aku gembira, kadang juga aku bersedih. Aku cuba melawan perasaan aku untuk sentiasa ceria supaya tiada yang curiga atau terbias kesedihan aku ini. Tapi semakin kuat aku mencoba untuk menahan, semakin kuat pula sebatan kasih itu aku rasakan. Apakah aku sudah terbawa-bawa dengan rintihan sayup yang jauh di dalam sudut jiwa aku?

Iya, aku akui kamu mungkin tertanya-tanya kemana perginya karakter aku yang ceria dan bahagia seperti kamu kenal dulu? Yang petah menasihati teman-temannya kerna bersedih, supaya lebih kuat semangat dan menjalani hari-hari yang berlalu dengan tabah. Ketahuilah, aku juga manusia punya hati dan perasaan yang pastinya tiada terlindung dari emosi sedih yang berbalam-balam. Aku juga ingin punya teman tapi mesra. Aku juga ingin rasa dicintai yang sebenar-benarnya. Airmata aku juga jernih seperti tangis kamu itu. 

Apakah yang kurasakan kini, sedih yang bisa membuat aku jadi sewel untuk berfikir secara matang. Kenapa harus aku rasakan suasana seperti ini? Sepi yang mencengkam setiap lulur lulur tubuh aku. Bukan saja airmata aku yang berlinang, liang-liang roma aku turut meresbeskan kesyahduan hatiku saat ini. Hingga terkadang jari-jariku seperti mahu berhenti untuk mencoretkan nahskah ini.

Kasih, fahamilah hati aku sayang. Aku hanya mahu kamu saja kerna aku telah terlanjur mencintaimu. Segenap jiwa raga aku akur dengan rasa hati ini.  Walaupun sebenarnya aku adalah orang yang bukan mudah untuk mengakui aku bisa lafazkan mencintai kekasih. Tapi kini aku sadar aku larut dalam kasihmu. Setelah cahaya yang kau pancarkan begitu sirna dalam lubuk hatiku. Mengapa kau padamkan lagi?

Aku sebenarnya tidak memahami apa yang berlaku antara kita ketika ini. Tiada mukaddimah tiada salam akhir. Hanya aku yang tertinggal dan tertanya. Mengapa? Seberapa salahkah diri aku ini padamu? Seberapa hinakah aku dimata mu? Hingga aku dapat merasakan kau begitu menjauh dari aku. Tanpa sebarang isyarat untuk aku memahami apa yang berlaku.

Kadang aku membaca coretan-coretan yang ada di laman sosial itu. Sesak nafasku meniti setiap baris dan ayat yang tertulis. Aku coba untuk menahan perasaan aku untuk tidak berprasangka. Tapi aku tak bisa kerna aku sudah terlatih untuk membaca apa yang tersirat dari segalanya yang tersurat. Dan aku juga tidak bisa menjauh dari kamu. Setelah itu aku hanya membiarkan saja. Aku tidak mahu ia akan memukul hati aku dengan kuat hingga ia berderai. Memang terkadang aku cemburu. Mereka sering berkata cemburu itu tandanya sayang. Entahlah...

~~Mereka sering berkata...cinta itu milik kita, tapi mengapa kau enggan ucapkan cinta lagi??

Aku sunyi bila kau mulai menjauh, kita tidak lagi sebahagia yang dulu pernah ada antara kita. Katamu semuanya kerna ingin menjaga hati. Tapi apakah hatiku telah kau jaga? Aku sangat merindukan saat itu! Saat Valentine Sayang. Keduanya enggan mengalah untuk mengatakan siapa yang lebih mencinta. Lucu dan bahagia! Tapi mengapa tidak kini lagi? Dulu kita cemburu dengan gelagat pasangan lain. Ingin lakukan yang lebih terbaik daripada yang mereka lakukan. Kota Rome jadi kompasnya.

Sekarang aku menjadi takut dengan perasaan aku. Seperti apa yang aku rasakan di awal dulu. Tapi aku coba tuk kuatkan hatiku. Kerna aku masih mengidamkan untuk menciptakan kenangan terindah kita bersama. Kadang aku coba menipu hatiku supaya jangan bersedih. Mungkin aku tlah terbuai jauh. Aku hanya ingin dicintai. Seseorang yang menemani aku mandi untuk bersama menyambut seru menjimatkan penggunaan air sedunia. Saling menjaga. Mencium aku bila aku terasa sakit. Dan mendendangkan kata-kata yang indah mengisi tidur malamku. Melakukan aktiviti harian bersama, memasak, cuci kereta serta berkongsi cerita ketika tirai malam terungkai labuh.

Kekasihku, katakanlah kau jadi milik aku. Kerna tanpa kekasihku, percuma saja aku ada disini. Dimana letak syurga itu? Biar ku gantikan tempatmu dengan aku. Adakah tangga syurga itu? Biar aku temukan, untuk bersamamu. Aku tidak mampu berdiri sendiri begini. Aku amat memerlukan kamu. Ku merindui suaramu mengucapkan kau sayang padaku.

Tiap hari berganti, tiap saat yang berlalu, tiada selainnya yang aku nantikan hanya untuk mendengar khabar berita dari kamu. Jika link inbox itu bukan maya, sudah rusak agaknya kerna selalu digodam. Hingga terkadang aku terkilan bila kamu aktif di laman yang lainya sementelah aku masih termanggu menunggu ucapan salam bahagia dari kamu. Apakah aku telah terlupakan? Sehingga aku berasa malu untuk menyampuk kemeriahan yang berlangsung. Telefon bimbit itu juga mungkin sedang bersedih. Ia tak mahu berdering lagi sejak sekian lama. Tiada lagi pesanan ringkas 'MyLove' di panel skrinnya. Ya tuhan, apakah cobaan ini akan membunuh hatiku?

Sebenarnya aku ingin meluahkan segalanya terus kepada kamu. Tapi aku takut kamu akan tersinggung mendengar cerita sedih ini. Oleh itu aku hanya meyalurkan kesedihan aku pada teman-teman yang ingin mengerti. Maafkan aku jika itu melangkaui batas yang kau sempadankan.

Berilah aku pengertian untuk segalanya...kasih!

Aku ingin menyambung lagi luahan ini, tetapi aku tak mampu meneruskannya. Biarlah aku melayan pedih luluh hatiku. Sepi tanpa dengung. Derai airmata ini membasahi dingin salju malam.

Selamat malam sayangku. Aku rindu~~

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Cerita Kita Sama Cuma Berbeza Versi

Aku terpanggil menulis lagi, berbicara soal rumitnya kelenjar-kelenjar darah dalam hati. Bersama kita telah melewati hari yang kelmarin. Telah tertulis untuk kita satu diari hidup. Apakah bahagia apakah terluka sengsara. Dibenak aku kini berputar-putar segala macam rasa, cerita dan fikiran yang membingungkan. Aku cuba untuk menguraikan kekusutan dengan akal yang waras walau terkadang ia terlalu sakit untuk dirasai.

Aku memahami dan juga mengakui, ada diantara kita yang merasai rasa yang sama. Ada juga yang berbeda. Namun itu cuma skrip khayalan yang telah tertulis untuk kita, terpulang mahu membacanya atau tidak, melakonkannya atau tidak.

Bila rasa aku ini rasamu, sanggupkah kamu merasai dugaan yang pernah aku hadapi dan meneruskan kehidupan seperti seindah biasanya. Setelah itu jangan jadikan apa rasa kamu itu kini sebagai alasan untuk kamu takut untuk memulai hidup yang baru lagi, mencintai sesiapa yang dekat dengan kamu seperti dia mencintai kamu.

Mungkin citarasa kamu berbeda dari apa yang kamu punyai, tapi apakah dia yang kamu cintai itu menyayangi kamu seperti apa yang insan disisi kamu itu sanggup korbankan untuk kamu. Bila cinta tak lagi untuk mu, bila hati tak lagi pada mu, mengapa harus dikenang lagi. Pergilah sudah tinggalkan saja dan berbahagialah tanpa kekasihmu yang itu.

Mencobalah untuk setia dan menyedari kehidupan yang baru itu ada. Senang-senang duduklah di serambi sambil nyanyi lagu puisi zikir zaman berzaman. Cerialah senyum mu itu seindah suria, walau suram pandangan mu kini. Percayalah.. Pasti ada yang masih disisi mu, menggenggam erat tangan mu agar kamu tak pernah lagi terbiarkan dan sesat diperjalanan hadapan. Seiring dan sejalan. Cinta di dalam hati bukan di luaran.

Aku juga selalu tahu aku dan kamu telah disakiti, bukan melarang untuk membiarkan kamu menangis sedih. Menangislah sepuasnya, kerna kita bukanlah superman, tapi jangan sampai esok kamu masih menangisi hal yang sama. Sedih itu sudah memang deria kita, mungkin itulah saatnya untuk kita memahami dan mengerti diri sendiri. Dan itu jugalah saatnya kita harus merehatkan hati minda kita dari segala macam rasa. Tapi jangan sampai terlalu lama. Jangan abaikan apa yang ada di sekeliling mu. Jangan sampai kamu menyesali pula setelah kehilangan ia. Double Looser!!

Betul kan dunia nih banyak fesyen manusia, its meant to be like that (I hate when I speak english cause it will makes me emo and idealistic) supaya kita lebih kenal dunia dan menjadi lebih matang dan kuat semangat tuk berdiri sendiri...or berdua! Kita dipertemukan dengan orang yang bukan tuk kita terlebih dahulu untuk menguji kita, dan kita pasti bertemu yang terbaik pada kita if we believe so. Bukan semua yang kita mahu kita dapat, dan bukan semua yang kita dapat adalah yang kita mahukan. We only try to do what is best for us and everyone. Untill then, we'll understand that's really precious to us.


You'll found someone, that really understand you for what you are and I'll bet you'll do the same too. For me I've been through too much stakes.. so many more.. and it makes me the person for what I am today, and now pun, sometime I dont believe I still alive!! And somtimes we fake a smile just to camouflage our inner side of felling.

Mencintai bukan kerna umur.. bukan kerna nama.. bukan kerna Captain or  Engineer or Doctor, bukan kerna tinggi or rendah.. bukan kerna gemuk or kurus.. bukan kerna you love panda more than koala..

CINTAKAN DIA KERNA HATI BUDI DAN PENGORBANAN.. SOKONGAN DAN MEMAHAMI.. TOLERANSI DAN KOMUNIKASI.. KEBERSAMAAN DAN SALING MEMBERI.. memang kita perlu tau latar belakang masing-masing.. tapi biarlah secara ikhlas.. sooner or later kita tahu juga.. jangan sampai ada yang sangsi!
Madu ditangan kiri mu, racun ditangan kanan mu.. Jika yang memberi racun itu bukan kekasih namanya. Tiada siapa yang sanggup memberi kekasihnya racun. Romeo dan Juliet itu lain ceritanya.

Memang terkadang kita takut untuk mengakui cinta. Takut ada yang terluka dan dilukai. Itu jangan difikirkan, berilah peluang untuk kita saling berbahagia dalam hidup yang sesingkat cerita panggung wayang ini. Jika aku lah Manager panggungnya, akan aku pastikan semua penontonnya menikmati cerita cinta itu, bahagia.

Cintailah seseorang sepenuh hati hari ini, karena mungkin besok cerita sudah berganti. Ingatlah bahwa kamu menunjukkan penghargaan pada orang lain bukan karena siapa mereka, tetapi karena siapakah diri kamu sendiri. Jadi, jangan biarkan masa lalu mengekangmu atau masa depan membuatmu bingung, lakukan yang terbaik HARI INI dan lakukan SEKARANG juga!

Hiduplah apa adanya, karena yang ada hanyalah hari ini; hari ini yang abadi. Perlakukan setiap orang dengan kebaikan hati dan rasa hormat, meski mereka berlaku buruk pada kamu.

Pintu masa lalu telah tertutup; pintu masa depan pun belum terbuka. Pusatkan saja diri anda untuk hari ini. Kamu dapat mengerjakan lebih banyak hal hari ini bila kamu mampu memaafkan hari kemarin dan melepaskan ketakutan akan esok hari. Hiduplah untuk hari ini, karena masa lalu dan masa depan hanyalah permainan fikiran yang rumit.

Hingga mentari esok hari terbit, kamu tak tahu apa yang akan terjadi. Kamu tak bisa melakukan apa-apa esok hari. Kamu tak mungkin sedih atau ceria di esok hari. Esok hari belum tiba; biarkan saja .....

Kamu tak bisa mengubah apa pun yang telah terjadi. Kamu tak bisa menarik perkataan yang telah terucapkan. Kamu tak mungkin lagi menghapus kesalahan; dan mengulangi kegembiraan yang kamu rasakan kemarin. Biarkan hari kemarin lewat; lepaskan saja ....
Cerita ini adalah untuk renungan kita bersama.. Kamu dan aku. Semogalah ini yg terbaik buat kita..
P/S: and I still love you for i dont know what reason.
Copyright (c) AlexisQandar 7

Monday, March 22, 2010

Jokes of The Day

A Navy psychiatrist was interviewing a potential sailor.
To check on the young man's response to trouble,
the psychiatrist asked, "What would you do if you looked out of that window right now
and saw a battleship?" The young sailor said,
"I'd grab a torpedo and sink it"
"Where would you get the torpedo then?"
The man replied, "The same place you got your battleship!"


A cocky manager of a large office noticed
a new guy one morning and told him to come to his office.
"What's your name?" is the first thing the manager asked him.
"John sir" the guy reply shortly.
The manager pissed off. "Look, I dont know what kind of a place
you've worked before, but here I dont call anyone by thier first name.
It breeds familiarity and that leads to a breakdown in authority!
I refer to my employees by thier last name only
-Smith, Jones, Baker - that's all.
I am to be referred to only as Mr. Thompson.
Now that we got that straight, what is your last name?''
The new guy sighed and said, "Darling sir. My name is John Darling"
"Okay, John, next thing I want to tell you is..."


Beautiful nurse wallked into the maternity waiting room
and said to one man, "Congratulations sir, you're new father of twins!"
The man replied excitedly, "How about that, I work at KLCC Twin Tower!"
About an hour later the same nurse entered and annouced that
another man had just had triplets.
"Well, how do you like that, I work at Batu 3 Shah Alam!"
A third man then got up and started to leave, saying,
"I thinks I need a breath of fresh air - I work at 7 Eleven".....

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Al-Quran is the Best Doctor

Semua penyakit yang Allah jadikan di dunia ini ada penawar nya didalam Al-Quran, contohnya:

- Surah Qaaf ayat 16 hingga 45, Surah Ah-Qaaf ayat 21 hingga 28 dan Surah Sod ayat 34 hingga 61 selalunya untuk penyakit yang ada kaitan dengan tulang (seperti sakit rheumatism, arthritis, sakit sendi, tulang patah atau fractured, slip disc, sakit tulang belakang)

- Surah Al-Buruuj ayat 1 higga 22 selalunya di baca untuk penawar sakit-sakit yang berkaitan dengan perut (seperti gastric, stomach ulcer) atau penyakit yang berkaitan dengan usus besar atau usus kechil.

- Surah Al-Israa' ayat 40 hingga 55 untuk pesakit yang mengalami sakit jantung, saluran darah tersumbat (blockage) dan jantung berlubang.

- Ayat-ayat dalam Surah Al-Anfaal untuk sakit jangkitan kuman/virus atau "infections". Ayat ayat dari Surah Al-Anfaal ini berfungsi sama seperti ubat-ubat antibiotiks.

- Ayat-ayat dalam Surah An-Nahli untuk memberi kekuatan atau tenaga kepada pesakit. Kekuatan dari segi fizikal dan kekuatan dari segi dalaman atau rohani. Ayat-ayat ini berfungsi untuk meningkatkan kekuatan fizikal atau immuniti (sistem daya pertahanan sesaorang). Peningkatan kekuatan rohaniah dari segi semangat dan keazaman pesakit.

- Ayat-ayat dari Surah Al-Anbiyaa', Surah Al-Qasas, Surah Al-Ma'idah, Surah An-Naml khusus untuk penyakit kencing manis (diabetes), darah tinggi (hyper-tension), sakit angin ahmar (stroke) dan lain-lain lagi.

- Ayat-ayat dari Surah Yusuf dan Surah An-Nahli untuk penyakit lemah tenaga batin untuk kaum lelaki.

- Ayat-ayat dalam Surah Maryam, Ambiyaa' dan Imran untuk sakit fibroid, ovarian cysts dan lain-lain sakit perempuan.

- Ayat-ayat dari Surah Fatah, Yunus, Hud, Az-Zumar, Ma'idah, Al-A'raff, Ash-Syura, Al-Qasas dan lain-lain surah untuk berbagai jenis penyakit kanser, sakit buah pinggang (kidney failure), hepatitis dan lain lain penyakit.

- Ayat-ayat dari Surah Al-Baqarah, Fussilat, Ash-Syu'aara, Al-Furqaan, Ar-Ra'd, Toha, Al-Mu'minum, Muhammad, dan lain-lain surah untuk penyakit gangguan sihir, santau, rasuk jin atau iblis, ilmu pangasih, ilmu pelalau, ilmu pemisah dan lain-lain penyakit gangguan atau "spiritual illness".


Surah dan ayat-ayat Al-Quran ini bukan sahaja dapat mengubati sakit-sakit fizikal (seperti kencing manis, darah tinggi, sakit jantung, kidney failure, saluran darah tersumbat) malahan ianya lebih berkesan mengubati penyakit-penyakit rohani yang disebabkan oleh jin, syaitan dan iblis (seperti ilmu sihir, saka dan racun santau).

Sihir yang sangat popular di kalangan masyarakat melayu adalah ilmu pengasih dan ilmu pemisah. Ilmu pengasih apabila ada orang yang ingin mempengaruhi emosi dan perasaan sesaorang dengan menggunakan jin dan sihir. Ilmu pemisah pula apabila ada orang ketiga yang ingin memisahkan pasangan suami isteri untuk mengawini suami atau isteri pasangan tersebut.

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 1 hingga 25, ayat 44 hingga 55, ayat 85 hingga 95, ayat 103 hingga 203, ayat 165 hingga 186 dan ayat 244 hingga 255 adalah ayat penawar kepada sakit-sakit gangguan yang disebabkan oleh sihir manusia melalui jin, iblis dan syaitan.

- Surah Asy Syuaraa' ayat 95 hingga 118, Surah Arrad ayat 30 hingga 34, Surah Fussilat ayat 25 hingga 44, Surah Furqaan ayat 61 hingga 77, Al-Mukminun ayat 105 hingga 118, dan ayat-ayat di dalam Surah Taha, A'raaf, Hud, Surah Al-Hasyr, Surah Al-Ghaasyiyah dan Surah Asy Syura sungguh berkesan dibaca untuk mengeluarkan jin, benda-benda halus atau racun-racun perbuatan ilmu sihir atau santau dari badan manusia.

- Surah Muhammad ayat 21 hingga 32 dan Surah Taha ayat 120 hingga 135 adalah ayat "penyejuk" iaitu penawar kepada orang yang panas baran dan untuk mententeramkan jiwa, fikiran dan hati. Sekiranya hati rasa resah dan gelisah atau "moody" tanpa sebab, dengan mengamalkan ayat-ayat ini dapat mententeramkan jiwa dan hati

Insyallah kita amalkan ya...moga dimakbulkan dengan izin Allah

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Life That Teach Me to Be A Better Man ::PART 2::

After all of my classroom laugh at me, I can laugh back at them when my teacher explain that there is nothing wrong with my pronounciation! Its just because I was taught different slang of english. From that moment, it gives me more enthusiasism to learn more about languange. Not only english but a few more that might catch my interest. Japanesse, Mandarin, Thai, Tagalog, Spanish and so on.

SPM result was out, I'm happy with it. Even not very good but I am satisfied. 4A, 4B, 1C. Plus my active record on Hockey, Silat Gayong, Basketball and Debate that would be a ticket to futher my studies. Then I got offer to Matriculation on Physicals Science Course. Then again I travelled all by myself to Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan, KML.

8 hours travel by bus to Kota Kinabalu Town from my hometown. Then get into a 3 hours ferry to Labuan Island. Directly shoot to the campus by mini bus and register myself at hostel. I realised almost all my school mate were admitted there. It became more chaosly chaos when all three my room mate are my classmate. It was good feeling but deep inside me, Damn! Isn't there anybody else to be my room mate. I am sick of them. Haha.

Class started. Nothing else got into my mind. Study.. study.. study! Matric classes are getting harder to digest. But I still try my best to follow and learn. But, what was happening is few of my school mate stuck in culture shock to the matric student lifestyle. Which is all up to you, nobody seems to care whether you go to the class or not. We are not in 'asrama penuh' anymore. No punishment for escaping class nor not finish your task. More likely to University lifestyle.

I learned few new things about life when I was there. It is all by yourself. Up to you on how you manage your life, financial and time. I also met new friends from other parts of Sabah and Sarawak. I can speak Melayu Sarawak languange and sometimes Sarawakian fellas thought that I from Sarawak as well. My best friend, Christopher are from Kuching. He is cool guy, nice smile and always with me when I need somebody. We are in the same Tutorial Class. We play skateboard together which he taught me how to play. I fell so many times until I got used to it. He always gave me encouragement. Thank you dude. I love play squasy, I taught him in return and I let him won at first just to makes him feels good. Oh, I miss my old friends already.

One thing I never forget is I think I'm in love with one cute beautiful girl named Angel. I always teased her in Chemistry class. Got her number but my heart is broken when she just want us to be friends. But its okay at least I can spend time with her and doing revision.

Few months later, i felt comfortable to hang out and doing things together with this guys group we called Kumpulan Rosman. Funny right? hehe. Because the head group is one little guy named Rosman which is finally I found out that he is my Counsins counsin. I had a lot of sweet memories with them. We go out shopping together. Doing homework together. Poker. Calling names at each other. Accusing somebody else were gay and etc. The most precious moments is when we sneaked out in the middle of the night and walk away to the beach and swim in the cold night sea. It was fun and enjoying moment. We doing barbeque, playing guitars and sings all night long. Almost everyday we doing that. And it was Ramadhan month somemore. So when we got back to hostel we took our Sahur directly and went to sleep.

Oh ya, I still remember when I were in Silat Gayong training. Everynight we have training after Isyak. The good thing when you join martial art is you became more alert than before. I did knocked my friend down when he touch my shoulder from backside. So sorry about that friends. You can feel the differnts too, you'd become more healthy and stronger. My sparring partner is Azlan, we always called him as Lan Komeng for his head is bald. And he is became one of my BFF as well. Sweet time when all of the 'pesilat' went camping at Pulau Pandan, we play and swim together. I dont know if he is gay but he is so lovely to me. Haha, and I'm the one he will searching for when he were sick and he will do the same as well. So, you know that I am a good on taking care of sick friend...hehe. Stop with that. I want to thank you our tok guru for trusting us to join Borneo Open Silat competition. Even we are still white belt but he taught us how to handle Parang, Keris and partner Art Sparring. May god bless you.

Owhh man.. I missed my old times together with my friends. Can I go back to school??

--to be continue (c) Alexisqandar 7

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Life That Teach Me to Be A Better Man

I've been sitting in front my desk for a while, thinking what to write about? About my life, others or just a fiction. Then I look back and squeezing my brain off. About the world around us, its been a tremendously contaminated and polluted by our own hands. Be GREEN guys. About love and partnership life. Political views is untouchable for the reasons I don't know why? What is constitution for? Free to voice-up our minds. Oh forget it!

Lets just talk about us, what was happens, happening and in future preparations? I am graduated from one of biggest local University up-north. There is so much resistances and barriers I've been through. That is taught me so much about life and to be a better man. Been struggling to show the world that I can be somebody too. But still, it seems to me that I have to work more harder than before to achieve my goals and pursue my dreams.

I have been stand alone on my own since I was 15. Start to believe in myself to stay at school hostel. Focusing on my study for the PMR examination. Even though I never had the chance to bought my own reference books, just borrow it from some of good school mate. So, just think about it. If you borrow somebody else books and at the same time they might need it. You have to reschedule your study time. They sleep, you are awake to read or handwriting-copy it. They go for lunch-break, you still in the classroom doing reviews. Over sometimes, you might feel that life is unfair to you on that time. You try to understand it, but you are still young to face it. And that makes me much more matured than my age.

For that, I am thankful to Allah and my lovely parents, I've got such a good result but not really outstanding. Receive more than seven award for being a good student for several subjects, participation in schools projects and a big award that really shocked me. For I doesn't know that I have one more award left, since I'd checked my list that I received it all already. It is an ULTIMATE PRINCIPAL AWARD! Alhamdulillah. Such a sweet memories of school time of life. How about you? Don't you missed your school epoch?

After that I admitted to Science school out of my hometown for 2 years. I learn a lot of new things there. Being apart from family is one, but being somewhere called new place is something we have to cope with to adapt our lifestyle so we didn't look ignorance. Making some new friends, be a good boy and try to hide our personal secrets which best for us to keep it that way, otherwise it will be a disaster and ruin our relationships.

I met this one nice guy. Some friends says we like a twins just with different mom and dad, hahaha! just because our name almost the same and magically our parents name almost same as well. Where he'd be and there were am I. Sweet memories again. Skip that part. Nothing happens actually, just a close friend. Thank you for that.

This story maybe more interesting. It was my birthday 13th July 2001. That night after doing reviews for exam, I felt something is going to happen to me. Such a weird feelings, that like telling you things distinctively. I go to bed as usual. On my way to dreams, suddenly I felt a group of guys raid into my room. Strangled my neck, tied my hands and feet and kidnap me to somewhere I didn't know for my head veiled with fabric. Suddenly I felt they put me onto something wet surface. They'd runaway and I tried to open the veil covered my head with tied up hands. As soon as I open my eyes, I am in the toilet, someone splashed me with a nasty smelly liquids. Damn!! It was corny jack-fruit that been stocked for three days I guess. Owh man... Can you imagined? Hahaha. It was my dorm-mate devise. Not enough with that they laugh out loud on me. Then they pulled me out to the basket-ball court. They made a circle around me, one guy named King, for he's got the Perak Royal blood then says that there is a game called 'run and hide or you finished!' The rule is simple, I have to run and hide in the middle of the night around the school and they will chasing me. If I got caught, there is another punishment for me. In the count of one to ten... Vroommmm!! There I gone with full throttle sprint that I think I could win the Olympics Game. Such a humiliating moments. I hide in the dark far away in the middle of the Rugby field. Funny thing is I laugh back on them for searching me around the school in the dark. I have the gift, i guess, for I can see clearly in the dark. One hour after, they still searching and I can feel that they start to worried. For what I can see is that our warden is informed already about my missing in action. Then I sneaked into our dorm. I took a cold night shower then gone to bed sleep like a baby.

Next morning, there is big assembly occasions. The diciplinary teacher start to called several names which is list of them are the gang from last night event and lastly my name included. The board of school knew it then we have been punish to clean up the school every day for 2 weeks. Hereafter then we are being a closed friends. I start to learn to be a bad boys yet seems cool to the others eye. Sometimes to be a bad boy goods for your feelings. Don't be a geek! Nerd'o.

Next part. Science subject is my favorite especially chemistry. Love to do experiments way beyond the school boy should do. Even it not in the book. Here I became the nerd'O again. Too much question to a teacher to handle. Even sometime I corrected what the teacher says. That makes him like a fool to me. Sorry, didn't meant that. Next class I enjoyed as well is Physics. Love the way the teacher talk. The accent from Kelantaness always entertain us. Its time for me to be a bad boy. Biology?? Who didn't love the Microscope that magnify every little tiny thing. Cells, microorganism, blood etc. There is once one of the pervert guy try to magnify his own sperm. WTF!! Everyone was excited to view it. Add-math always challenge me. This subject, the most I did reviews for what I can remember. Its just such a feeling when you can solve an equation the feels like you have won a battle. I love my English teacher, she provide us with the Singaporean school syllabus that believed the degree a higher than Malaysian English. I remember the moment when she asked me to read a passage. I didn't know what are my classmate laughing at by time I start to read and read. Is it because of the way I stand infront or something wrong with my appearance? Or I pronounce it incorrectly? Finish that reading I go to my desk. Then my teachers asked the class why are they laughing? One of them replied it because the way I pronounce word of "the".... I pronounce it as "D" and they recommend it supposed to pronounce as "de".. I just smile. I bet you guys know why right?

-to be continued...ngantoks arrrr!! Comments please..

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Terpanah Lembayung Cintamu


Hujan bagai mengerti hatiku..
Makin gelora rasa hati ini..
Makin deras limpahan dingin saljumu..

Andai esok sudah tiada bagi aku..
Harapanku kau bahagia..

Telahku ku baca semua coretan kisah..
Lakaran kasihnya impian semua..
Tapi bagai aku sendiri tiada..

Sinar lembayung cintamu amat kuat..
Kadang ia menghiburkan..
Kadang ia terbisa..

Akar bumi bergoncang lagi..
Tiada kasihan melihat aku sudah tiada terpegang..
Maka jatuh juga menyembahmu..

Lembah-lembah kasihmu..
Masih aku tatapi..
Ku paksa juga hati ini..
Meneroka isi jiwamu yang kacau..
Agar bisa aku hidup bersamamu selamanya..

Oh tuhan..
Berikanlah aku..
Pancang-pancang teguhmu..
Aku mahu berdiri lagi diatasnya..
Demi mencari sezarah pahala dan..
Menghapus selautan dosaku..

Alexisqandar 7

(c) copyright reserve

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Surat-surat Cinta Bunian..

Kalau saja dapat diceritakan isi hati ini..
Bisa jadi novel cinta..
Pasti laris dipasaran..

Indahnya butir-butir bicara..
Bagaikan kata-kata yang dipetik dari langit..
Apakah benar..
Surat-surat cinta bunian itu wujud..
Helaian tinta itu pasti magis..

Apa saja..
Bila kita lagi bersedih..
Sedih pilu yang teramat..
Bagaimana hendak mengatasi sedih itu?
Ya..kita hanya mampu mengalirkan air mata..
Bukan nak disalahkan jiwa yang lembut..
Tapi itu hakikat kita manusia biasa..

Bila satu saat..
Akan pasti datang nanti yang bahagia..
Ceritakanlah isi hatimu bagaimana..
Biar kita memahaminya..
Mencari formula yang cantik..
Dan buang semua duka luka kita..
Hadapi masa-masa hidup kita dengan senyuman..

Ohh.. ketenangan hati...

(c) copyright Alexisqandar

Thursday, February 25, 2010

My Cinta...

Aku sedar...
Entah apa lagi...
Slalu saja begitu kisah cinta aku...

Dari sisi hati aku yang lain..
Aku hanya ingin dicintai apa adanya..
Tapi mungkin aku harus belajar..
Hidup ini tak seindah seni binaan France..

Bertiuplah wahai angin North Pole..
Sejukkanlah liang hatinya..
Agar bisa puing-puing jantung aku berputar lagi..

Terikkanlah cahaya mu mentari pagi Dubai..
Keringkanlah butir-butir air mata aku..
Walau aku tersiksa oleh bahang hukuman mu..
Hati yang terluka..
Mata yang berdarah..

Andai bisa saja aku kosongkan tubuh ini dari darah merah..
Biar sepucat salju Korea..
Tapi itu pasti menambah gelora laut Caspian..

Habiskanlah coretan puisi ini..
Jangan ada lagi cerita yang mendung gerhana..
Biar semua tenang dan ceria..
Senyumlah wahai sang kekasih..

My Cinta..

(c) copyright Alexisqandar 7

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Drachma-drachma Cinta

Verse 1

Kenapa kasih berubah rasa..
Kala malam mengintai siang..
Andai bisa kubeli cinta..
Akan ku dapatkan drachma-drachma emas itu..
Pilunya liang roma menahan kesyahduan..
Dingin sendu disedut lembut..
Lalu dihembus nafas kerinduan..
Verse 2
Setenang air di kali..
Terpadamlah gundah dihati..
Menitip kasih melalui harapan..
Terbit rasa mengalun senyum..
Tapi apa untai kata balasan di sana bakal berbunga rindu?
Jika benar bak dikata..
Cenderawasih kayangan jadi saksi..
Tetes embun penyejuk kalbu..
Terlerai segala gundah..
Meneruskan heretan kasih..
Seharum wangi kayu-kayuan Midle East!
Verse 3
Maafkan aku mencintai kamu sebegini..
Smoga mimpi semusim ini..
Menjadi hamparan peta cinta kita..
Kutiplah mutiara-mutiara merah itu..
Dan terbanglah ke-arah aku..
Mereka pernah berkata..
Dunia ini pentas lakonan semata..
Tapi hayatilah lirik-lirik lagu kita..
Dan kau akan sedar..
Itulah luahan yang jauh disudut kalbu aku..

(c) copyright: Alexisqandar

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

How Much Do You Love Making Love

A friend of mine ask me to do an article on SEX and this is what running through my head immidiately. What the benefits of making love apart of sensual needs and satisfaction? Uhuh, some of us might knew this. For those who more.

First of all, somebody might say that SEX is not important. It's not the number one in relationship. But for me, it is. The more you having sex the bonds and chemistry you'll have throughout your relationship. Ever heard the quote- " If I making love then I may fall in LOVE?" - Maybe not. Haha.. it was mine.

Model: Edilson Nascimento

Okay lets straight to the point. I'll share some information based on my reading and experience. Its just something that I know. Yes, there is several benefits of making love more in our life.

The fountain of youth may be under your duvet of your most precious "SYURGA DUNIA". Couples who have sex at least four times a week may look 10 years more younger than thier real age.

"Pleasure from making love is a crusial factor in preserving youth due to the releasing of more adrenaline, dopamine and norepinephrine", says neurologist Dr. David Weeks who conduct study at Royal Edinburgh Hospital in Europe.

"More on that, sex triggers the release of human growth hormone, which fights free radicals from the contaminated earth nowadays. This Helps preserve skin cell walls and relax muscles which  could therwise cause wrinkles."


This definitely beats shelling out 25 motes for a flu jab. Having sex at least twice a week can boost your levels of immunoglobulin A by 20%. The antibody protects against colds and other annoying viral infections.

The study was made and they found out that those who had the most "vigorous" sex were even less prone to spurting the wrong kinds of body fluids.

"The key to boosting these natural antibodies is intensity and fun, so move around and try out all sorts of positions," says Paula Hall, a sexual therapist. (uhuh.. I like: some may says)

"Try the sexy scissors, with him/her lying on the edge of the bed, left leg over your right shoulder and right leg over your left side. You swing his/her ankles in ang out to the sides to trap your penis inside him/her."

Model: Edilson Nascimento


Unleash that libido now, get the rewards later. Men who ejaculate at least 7even times a week in thier twenties were found to be cover a third less likely to develop aggresive prostate cancer in later life than men who only having three climaxes.

Make it better: The biggest benefit comes from one ejaculation daily rather than multiples on certain days.

Model: Edilson Nascimento


Orgasm can halve your sensitivity to pain. Sex boost endorphins, the body natural pain killers, by up to third in a minute (Buletin of Experimental Biology and Medicine).

Make it better: If you are in pain, avoid anything overly vigorous and use long, slow strokes. Focus on grinding rather than shunting. Try "starfish" - lie on the bed facing up, heads poiting in opposite directions, "scissors" your legs and grab each others hands for leverage. Fuel up with fruit salad to maximise pain relief such as black grapes and oranges.

Model: Edilson Nascimento


Ahhh... the sweet lullaby of post-coital body chemistry. During the orgasm our body produces more oxytocin, a hormone that helps induse sleep. There is no doubt sex helps beat insomnia. And it works for me too.

Make it better: Boost your sleep potential by snacking on foods rich in serotonin, such as wholemeal bread or turkey because it will help you to absorb more oxytocin into your nerve system.

6. ....and CHEAT THE DEATH

There is a research been done and they found out that martality risk was 50% lower among men who had two or more orgasm a week. Regular orgasm increase immidiate levels of hormones called DHEA and testosterone, which combats the free radicals that cause cancer and heart disease.

Make it better: "the longer it lasts, the more good it does"... So, teeter on the edge to increase the intenseity of your orgasm. Thrust as far as you can, then grind against him/her. Your penis will be in the wider part of the vaginas so there will be less stimulation. Keep the depth constant for 30 seconds, then thrust them again. If that doesnt keep the boys in the barracks, try thinking of that telegrams from the Queen. Haha..

Friday, February 5, 2010

Hot Filipinos Actor: Jericho Rosales

Jericho Rosales - Kahit Isang Saglit

Our man feature is my ultimate crush Jericho Rosales. This tall, dark and very handsome actor was a product of a variety show. His looks together with his superb acting have put him in the map as a renowned actor. He was not only known here but around the world thanks to his soap and teledramas. Holding his fame in his hand he decided to try singing and go on a break. But it seems that break slows his career down. Though his already in the brick of his comeback and preparing another series with Kristine Hermosa, hopefully were there to anticipate and support it…

Jericho Rosales

Jericho Vibar Rosales (born September 22, 1979) is an accomplished actor, singer, and dancer from the Philippines. Also known as 'Echo'.

Several appearances on television programs like the long-running Maalaala Mo Kaya, and telenovelas like Sana’y Wala Nang Wakas and Pangako Sa `Yo caught the attention of the industry and also turned him into a household name. His acting in the episode, Pasa, of Maalaala Mo Kaya earned him his first Best Actor Star Award by the PMPC. The airing of these shows in other countries also made him into a regional star, particularly in Malaysia, where Pangako Sa `Yo was a runaway hit.


His first effort, LOOSE FIT, a self-penned 14-song album with his band Jeans was released in Malaysia in 2007 and eventually was picked up for local release by EMI Philippines. Though it made critics heads turn, his tv and film followers were taken aback by the progressive direction that his initial music foray took and sales were tepid.

As a true adventurer who enjoys life, Echo is not one who backs down from a challenge and continually seeks out new ways to master whatever endeavor he enters. Ever an avid surfer, he is always on the lookout as to how he can best ride that wave when it comes - both literally and figuratively.


When you feel love..

You do take my breath away
You make my heart beat faster
You make palms sweat
But that doesnt meant that I dont love you..
It means I do

Sometimes your heart knows things
Your mind cant explain
And my heart..
Doesnt race for anyone else

Te amo...

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Profession vs Partner / Personal Life

Most of the executives and whoever is working in any company may face this trouble in thier life. We are human being after all, its natural this happen to us. This is not the problem, the problem is how we face it and handle it well due to we are professional, isnt?

The real problem arises only when one half starts hampering the effective functioning of the other. For example, when things are not going too well on the professional front, our personal life suffers. Then it is time to stop and take notice. You have to make an all out attempt to compartmentalise and keep your personal and professional life apart for the sake of your own sanity and well-being. Else, you could end up losing both ways.

Here are some tips for you to try it out, but the real thing is, its up to you on how you manage your life beautifully.

1. Be yourself

It is impossible for a person to change his personality and be one kind of person at home and a different one at the office; unless of course, he is putting on an act. Remember, people get wise to the act at one point of time or the other. Every one of us has been blessed with unique abilities and talents, so let us not waste time worrying because we are not like other people. It is important to be honest and truthful to yourself. It is even more important to be able to love and respect yourself for being you. Once you come across as an honest and straightforward person, people are likely to be more understanding and less interrogative. Your excuse of a hard day at work is more likely to be accepted by your partner if they perceives you as telling the truth, just as your boss would pass your request for leave `because granny is ill'..."i'm attending my cats funeral"... with no comments, if he believes you are sincere.

2. Don't worry so much

Avoid falling into a permanent guilt mode, particularly if you have your partner at home. Just because you can keep working doesn't mean you should. Make time for a private life - even if this means that you need to put personal matters on your to-do list. Remember, your employer is more concerned with how well you do your job than what sort of person you are. So if this that makes you worry so much, put it aside when you're not working. Personal time is personal time!

3. Communications

For me, this is most important thing. But you must remember, communicate doesnt mean you only saying things and vice versa. It have to be in good technique. Words, channel, climate, interference and deliveration must count. When communicating with your loves one, to let them understand how is your carrier going on and on how much care about them, you must first understand them. Let them talk first, then you manipulate thier words on replying. Dont get it wrong, this is actually mean, when you communicate in the same interest and area of experience, its much more effective. One more thing, make sure you dont do talk when the climate is in big tensions. Spend some quality time, be happy and start speak out whats bother you so much. It is more acceptable when you say it on the right time.

4. Spot solutions

This the right time for you to make the right decision on how you want to solve the problems after you explain everything and make them understand. People often make the mistake of putting off important decisions. When there are a multitude of problems, we tend to simultaneously dwell on all of them, worry about all of them, procrastinate about all of them but seldom make a decision, even on one of them. Take one problem at a time. Give priority to important and urgent problems. If you have the facts required to make a decision, don't put it off or procrastinate. Deal with it immediately, before you move to the next problem. That way, you don't carry your work problems home with you or vice-versa. Think about how to save your carrier enhancement and at the same time you still able to spend some quality time with your partner. Lets say you have to go outstation for a quite a long time. Why not you bring them along to that destination. So you can bring them go out somewhere even its not a real vacation after works. You must be a big liar if you have to work 24/7!!

5. Emotional maturity

EQ or the emotional quotient that determines how people react to a given situation plays an important role in ascertaining how well individuals are able to stay in control of both their personal and professional lives. One has to learn to be emotionally mature and not over react, to personal/ work situations and pressures. At work, understand that any criticism is probably not personal, but professional. You will be able to handle things better if you condition yourself to be professionally involved but emotionally detached, as far as your work is concerned. It is easier said than done though, if you happen to love your job; the trick is to identify yourself more with your profession and less with the company. Same goes with your partner.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Sipadan Island

Sipadan Island, Sabah
Picture courtesy of LKWID

Sipadan is the only oceanic island in Malaysia, rising 600 metres (2,000 ft) from the seabed. It is located in the Celebes Sea east of the major town of Tawau and Semporna and off the coast of East Malaysia on the Island of Borneo. It was formed by living corals growing on top of an extinct volcanic cone that took thousands of years to develop. Sipadan is located at the heart of the Indo-Pacific basin, the centre of one of the richest marine habitats in the world. More than 3,000 species of fish and hundreds of coral species have been classified in this ecosystem.

Normally, rare diving scenes are frequently seen in the waters around Sipadan: schools of green and hawksbill turtles nesting and mating, schools of barracuda and big-eye trevally in tornado-like formations, pelagic species such as manta rays, eagle rays, scalloped hammerhead sharks and whale sharks.

A turtle tomb lies underneath the column of the island, formed by an underwater limestone cave with a labyrinth of tunnels and chambers that contain many skeletal remains of turtles that become lost and drown before finding the surface.


Getting there requires some effort. Most visitors fly to Tawau from either Kuala Lumpur (3 hours) or Kota Kinabalu (50 minutes), continue by minivan or taxi to the port town of Semporna (1-2 hours) and from there to Sipadan itself (1 hour by fast boat).

Sea Turtle, Sipadan
One of the many sea turtles in the waters surrounding Sipadan

One of the many white tip reef sharks in the waters surrounding SipadanSipadan claims to be the world's best dive site. While this is a big claim, the diving here is certainly world class. Sipadan used to have resorts but to protect the environment these were closed around the year 2002. To dive on Sipadan you have to stay somewhere nearby, such as on Mabul or in Semporna, and take a boat onto the island.

Because Sipadan is now a protected site, only 120 dives are allowed daily (as of 8/26/08). It's best to try to dive as early as possible to beat the crowds and increase your chances of getting on the roster to dive.

From the main beach of the original resort it is a mere 20m wade over the reef to reach the top of the reef wall dropping 1000-2000m. Sipadan is surrounded by very rich reef life consisting of both hard and soft coral as well as all manner of reef fish. Sea turtles and white tip reef sharks can be seen on almost every dive and hammerhead and leopard sharks can also be seen at times. Visibility ranges from 10m to 30m and above.

Note that a barge accident on 15 May 2006 did some damage to the reefs at Sipadan, crushing a portion of reef on the old pier and Barracuda Point and dumping its cargo of gravel in the area. This was not one of the best dive areas, but cleanup operations and other repercussions did restrict diving in the months since.

The rate for three dives at Sipadan is around RM560. Rates vary slightly among different operators. Boat transfers and packed lunch are included. Permits are limited to 120 per day and are typically obtained by the dive operators. You should verify that the diver operator you choose is diving at Sipadan with permits, as some companies have been caught diving the island recently without permits.


Sunset at Sipadan

Big Fish

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Fahrin bukan SUPERMAN

Fahrin Ahmad - aku bukan superman

Hot actors and host who is loved by many women, Fahrin Ahmad also have hearts and feelings. His emotion scratches easily. Fahrin so disappointed when his name and dignity stepped. As as in the song  of The Lucky Laki, Aku Bukan Superman.

His manly hearts want love and are loved by women, but Fahrin did not think his teman tapi mesra mock his reputation. Sadly shocked when read reports from his former lover, Linda Onn overthrow reputation, dignity Fahrin feel his manly soul really challenged.

That is why not surprising why the press conference announcing he would sue the popular Suria FM radio presenter who is also the ex-girlfriend recently, Fahrin tears fall in front of journalists. Fahrin too sad with Linda actions as he deems excessive.

For him, what is done by Linda can not be accepted even though his actions to sue Linda is hard decision to do. Perhaps because of that his manly soul crying even he sneakly shed his tears.

Friday, January 29, 2010

The Requirements for SUCCESSors

  • The DESIRE for attainment
  • A GOAL clearly defined in writing
  • A PICTURE of the goal constantly envisioned
  • A SUCCESS affirmation repeated daily
  • A SYSTEMATIC plan strictly followed
  • The COURAGE to take risks.
  • A WILLINGNESS to pay the price
  • A positive ATTITUDE at all times
  • The TEAM PLAYER practiced.
  • The SPIRIT to learn more
  • A warn REGARD for all
  • An endless DETERMINATION that won't quit.
Reasons are unacceptable. We need SOLUTIONS. Lets find out what works for us!!


  1. Green Beans
  2. Butternut Squash
  3. Chocolate
  4. Wheat
  5. Goats Milk
  6. Cottage Cheese
  7. Liquorice
  8. Ginseng Tea
  9. Tofu
  10. Red Snapper Fish
  11. Grapefruit
  12. Sesame Seeds
  13. Butter Beans
  14. Portobello Mushrooms
  15. Cauliflower
  16. Lentils
  17. Mackerel
  18. Tuna
  19. Lamb's Kidneys
  20. Carrots
  21. Walnuts
  22. Sweetcorn
  23. Oranges
  24. Tempeh
  25. Hummus
  26. Parley
  27. Soya
  28. Halibut Fish
  29. Cod Fish
  30. Kelp!

The Secret 2012

This.. I wrote, based on my readings

There is a time when you need somebody to hold you tight late at night, when you feel so longing and vulnerable. Then you start to think about everyone in your life, who they are, what are they doing and most of the time you keep asking yourself whether they have the same feeling as yours.

Your secret

As your mind still wondering around the skies above, maybe you questioned your heart about those people. Are they had became the person or friends that you ever wanted? What is it that makes you keep stick to them? Are they worth enough to your precious relationship? Maybe.

This is much more like diagnosing yourself. But one thing you must remember is you are GREAT! Nothing and nobody can judge you. Be yourself. When do we start winning our own life? When you start to believe in yourself then it is time of yours. You control everything surrounding you. The chemistry between you and the climate of your life is become more stronger than before. Physically and spiritually.

-to be continued

Lyric: Somebody Me - Enrique Iglesias

You, do you remember me?

Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I refell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you were somebody else


Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [2x]

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night taht our paths will soon cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

Repeat chorus

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

Repeat Chorus

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

This Love

Kadangkala perkara tercantik dan terindah di dunia ini tidak boleh dilihat mahupun dipegang. Hanya HATI yang boleh merasai kehadirannya..

Love is not there to forget.. but to forgive
Love is not there to see.. but to understand
Love is not there to hear.. but to listen
:ove is not there to let go.. but to hold on

Dont you ever leave your lover just because the one you like and admire, because somehow the one you like might be leaving you for one they love. Seek for someone who call you BEAUTIFULL instead of HOT.

Who calls you back when you hang up on?
Who is stay wake up late night to guard you when you are sick and just to watch you asleep?
Who is kissing your forehead early morning?
Who is holding your hands in public?

Wait for someone who keep reminding you how much he care and how lucky is he to have you..

Sunday, January 24, 2010

I Believe

I myself been thinking most of times, what or who I want to be in my life. Yes, there are always somewhere I have been facing obstacles to pursue what I've been dreamt of. But I keep saying to myself somehow that there is chances and opportunity for me to fullfill and prove to the world I'll be the one myself.

Your beliefs made up who you are and where you are in life. If you want to change any part of your life, you have to change your beliefs about yourself in that area. The starting point of unlocking your potential, and accomplishing more than you ever have before, is to challenge your self-limiting beliefs.

A friend of mine was telling me about 'THE SECRET' which is explain about the Power of Mind Control, I never read the book or watch the DVD but I do believe that human mind do control most of our behaviour. Did you ever felt that what came to your mind actually did happens in reality?

That's it! You are what you believe. Your mind controlled yourself. So be confident and happy for who you are. I read a book on psychology written by Maxwell Maltz, a plastic surgeon. He noticed that most of his patients personalities changed after cosmetic surgery. Many people changed from being depressed, negative and with drawn to positive and happy people after their surgery. He knew he didn’t operate on the brain, so he came to the conclusion it was the belief, the self image of oneself that was shifted. Watch what happens with kids. With a word of praise they do fantastic things and why a touch of negativity, even in your facial expression dims the light. What ever you believe about yourself, will end up affecting what you do and how you do it.

Each one of us has feelings of inferiority because we feel that we are not good enough. We think that we are not as good as other people, and we felt that we are not good enough to acquire and enjoy the things we wanted in life. Often we feel that we don't deserve good things. Even if we work hard and have some achievements in our life, we often feel that we are not really entitled to our successes.

The Universal Law of Belief says that whatever we believe, with feeling becomes our reality. We don't believe what we see; instead, we see what we believe. Our beliefs form a screen as to how we see the world, and we never allow any information that is not consistent with our beliefs to pass through it. Even if we have beliefs that are totally inconsistent with reality, we won't let them through because our beliefs have become true for us.

The fact is, you deserve every good thing that you are capable of acquiring through the use of your talents. The only real limitation on what you can be and have, is if you lack the desire. If you set a goal and want to achieve it badly enough, nothing in the world can stop you from achieving it, as long as you're willing to persist long and hard enough.

If you consistently act like the person you want to become every day and in every situation it will begin a chain reaction. Your attitude will change and become more postive. This will then build stronger and more postive beliefs. And your beliefs will then, exert a positive influence on your values.

You have no limitations on your potential except for those that you believe you have. Successful people are not extraordinary or special in any way. They are not different from you or I. But, all successful people do have the unwavering belief that they can accomplish anything that they really want in life. You are a good person. From this day forward, see yourself as the very best you can be, and refuse to accept any limitations on your possibilities. Once you develop that belief in yourself, and you act in accordance with your beliefs, your future will be unlimited.

You know there are people, beautiful people. You just wish they could see you in a different side, different place.. Instead of what you are, what you've become. But most of all, you wish you weren't such a pussy for wishing for things that'll never change.

Generally speaking we believe what we are programmed cumulatively to believe from the day we were born. To meet the goals and desires of your life you must continue to program you sub-conscious with positive thoughts that will help you reach your goals. I like Earl Nightingales saying, “A goal is the progressive realization of a worthy ideal.” Your goal is your goal and all we can do is help facilitate it with you. Write this down, talk to your manager. Have a great year.

-to be continue